Big Question Mark

To be or not to be? THAT is the question. I feel like Shakespeare's Macbeth faced with an important decision to make. I must say I'm at a loss...not for words but for sure answers. It started with a call from Smart today. The girl from HR told me they have a job offer. I was beyond ecstatic. I have always wanted to work for Smart. It was after all the very first job interview I had. Six months after and numerous tests and interviews from other companies after, I finally ended up with an offer. Yey! But then after the good news, confusion began to creep in slowly. I had to weigh the other options I had up in the table. Here's the scenario. I am currently working for a very good company. It will almost be my second month this coming October. My uncle and aunt were kind, very kind enough to give me a job so that I wouldn't be idle. Although sometimes I feel that my "work" is idle...that working didn't actually take all the idle time away. It actually added some more of it. Work wasn't really work. Work was not doing anything. Ironic, I know. Don't get me wrong. I like what I'm doing now, if there's work to do that is. Otherwise, I don't feel productive at all. Then there's the new job offer. I know it sounds to good to be true that's why there's a catch to it. It's not going to be a regular job. What they're offering is just a contractual job, which makes me a little apprehensive about accepting the whole thing. I don't really have the exact details with me yet. They say there's a big possibility of being absorbed by the company in the end. But still...it's a big risk. You could just imagine the million of what-ifs going on through my mind right now.

If it's accepting the Smart job, I am more than willing to give it a try... contractual or not. I just feel bothered by the thought of leaving my present job in so short a time, especially when it was my uncle who offered it to me. I don't feel comfortable with the idea of resigning too soon. I don't know if it's the right thing to do. Then there's also my future after the contractual job at Smart. It's still a big question mark. If they don't make me a regular, then sayang lang din. Although maybe the short contract Smart is offering could also turn out to work in my favor, contrary to what I have initially perceived it to be. Who knows I might not like the job? Then I could always look for other jobs...and this time, I could add my short stint at Smart to my work experiences. So now, what's left of all these is the ethical concern. I don't want to have to explain to my uncle, my aunt, my bosses, my supervisor (Did I mention that she has been very nice to me since yesterday which I hope will continue until forever...I'm now officially taking back what I said about her in my last blog entry.), and my officemates why I'm going to leave so soon already. Although if they would think about it which I hope they do, I wouldn't be a big loss to them. I don't really have any major responsibilities as of now. I'm not even handling any important items at the moment. I don't think they would even feel my absence. Hehe Really...I do not mean to sound degrading or unconfident of myself...it is after all the truth. I'm just stating it matter of factly.

So now the question remains...to be or not to be? To be SMART or not to be SMART? Haha I guess the answer lies where I would be happy the most. For now, I honestly don't know where that would be. That's why I left the decision to my dad. He told me to be SMART. My sisters and friends also told me the same thing. So I think I will be smart...hopefully without regrets.